That hearts can hurt this much
stuns.
Invisible hands
squeeze round the chest
wrap the throat
wipe tears that sting
and steal the breath.
I want to apologize to you
but can’t.
I can only…
make that change
in Michael’s name.
I am so sorry we didn’t
see you!
The mind reels
and eyes reveal
your message
landed here too late.
But better late
than never to arrive.
It’s not your fault.
You tried.
So will I…
to make that change
in Michael’s name.
The harm we inflicted
wounds
not just you—but us
and the world.
Oh the dark
we cloaked you in–
that tattered
and shattered
a soul
wounded so deep
as to take your sleep
and then your life.
I only know I will…
make that change
in Michael’s name.
We mistook your life for
ours.
Gave no rest,
chased your every move,
pointed fingers,
to mock, laugh,
call names,
rip your dignity
from outstretched hands
those same ones that
held the world,
tried to save it.
So I will…
make that change
in Michael’s name.
I can’t ever make it
right.
How could you
give so much when
we cared so little?
Held no mercy?
Heaped even more
upon your head
until you bent so far
you began to break.
I promise I will…
make that change
in Michael’s name.
The only thing we can do
now…
Remember you
were here.
Remember too that
no matter how much
we hurt you–
fisher of mankind,
you were ready to return,
to defy human nature
and try again
to capture us.
The least I can do now…
make that change
in Michael’s name.
(c) B.Kaufmann 2010 & beyond
*Note: Permission granted to reprint with (c) and author credits.
15 Comments
Dear Barbara, Thank you for this.It is beautiful.I'm going to copy this out and put it where I can see it often.Ive cried so much over what we've lost and I don't think my heart will ever heal properly but together we WILL make a change in Michaels name.With Love Anne UK.
Ah, Barbara …
We say it so well, with so much emotion. We speak with one voice. You express me so well. Thank you.
Jan
Tears flow freely…so heartfelt and lovely!
We find inspiration in knowing that Michael is counting on us to be all that we can be so that we will inspire others to do the same.
We DO stand at the threshold of a powerful elevation of consciousness. I can feel it more every day, in the tiniest of things.
Forever in our hearts, dear, sweet Michael. We will be there with you,again,one day.
Thank you, Barbara!
–Susan T
That's so beautiful. I've been in an emotional mood all day, what with realizing it is the day that would have been the last day of Michael's 02 residency.
What would his future have held past this night? We can only guess now, of course.
Thank you for all that you do.
Dear Barbara,beautiful as always.
Your articles are always so beautiful,so true,that I don´t find words to say how much I apreciate your innermichael.
Michael will always be in our heart and soul.
Thank you
From Portugal with love
mjangel
The only thing we can do
now…
Remember you
were here.
The least I can do now…
make that change
in Michael’s name
WOW such simple, profound statements. Love your insights.
Memorably said, inspiringly true. Thank you.
Memorably said, inspiringly true. Thank you, Barbara.
Beautiful.
Heartbreaking.
Hopeful.
Agonizing.
Healing.
Can’t stop the tears.
What can I even say now when you´ve already said it all!! I bow to show you my gratitude, solidarity, and respect. Thank you, Barbara.
Tears in my eyes and infinite pain but at the same time a great desire to MAKE A CHANGE! Thank you for this poem…describes best the gentle soul you are.
Beautiful, Barbara. Thank you for expressing so well what I feel. I was not a fan. But a change occured for me in the morning after he is gone. I began searching his lyrics and soon discover what I missed. A great Soul. An Old Great Soul. His energy continues on our Earth. Can’t stop the tears when I read Michael’s words. Can’t stop the tears when I see his sad sad eyes. ~from Portugal with love
It goes without saying, Barbara, that YOU speak the Ultimate TRUTH. We must all find our InnerMichael and “Make the Changes” necessary to fulfill our dreams and Michael’s, whilst we “Heal The World” for our children and our children’s children. Michael said, “We only have four years to fix it.” Let’s get on it! Join us, Sparkle People and let’s hold hands in solidarity for Michael. It’s All For Love…….L.O.V.E !
Oh my goodness Barbara. What you wrote here was beautiful and heart-wrenching. Your words are very thought-provoking. Humanity really needs to take a step back and realize what we are doing to one another. When reading words such as yours, my heart breaks because of the harm that we are capable of. I too will work to make that change in Michael’s name for the rest of my existence. Thank you.
My change also began the day after his death. I was very sad but I could´t know why. I wondered what was happening inside me. I couldn’t understand this lonely sensation. I felt a significant loss. Then I started to check all his work, his music, his speech and so on, and I became a new person! Something was beginning. Now I want to make the change in his name. MICHAEL’S NAME. I can stop naming him. Thank you Rev. Barbara!