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Finding Nemo Finding Neverland

Most of those outside the sphere of “Michaelology” scratch their heads and strain to understand the loyalty, the fierce defense of the man, his career and now that he’s gone—his reputation. Some fans of course, are enamored by the stardom, the fame and the sex appeal Michael tapped and cultivated for his audience. The sexual mystique is just another layer of the spiritual attraction many feel in Michaelology. The level of maturity guides many fans’ behaviors just as it does any other pop culture idol or performer.  Youth now swoons over Justin Bieber just as my mother did over Elvis and my grandmother over Sinatra. Love is a powerful attractor field (as in magnetic.)

There are those who find it difficult to understand why this one man could attract so much of the world’s attention and why his passing catapulted people into the throes of grief all over the planet—some of that grief deep and protracted.

There are fans and there are fans. Michael Jackson fans are as diverse with as many layers and driving motivations as may be found in the general population of any society or culture. And the layers are not always distinct, but often blend and bleed into one other.

A woman can find a spiritual message in Michael Jackson’s music and lyrics and still find Michael sexy. Or a young fan prone to drama might focus on his dancing and his attractiveness, fantasize about being his lover and hate Lisa Marie Presley because of Michael’s lifelong feelings for her. She can compare herself to Lisa and of course, Lisa loses and becomes a symbol of love unrequited and becomes a target for wrath. There is also a very large population of middle aged women who didn’t know Michael or his work before he died or knew him from a distance and many of them wrote me to say they were puzzled by the impact his death had on them.

I see them as “Earthmothers”—those women who embody the goddess archetype, are fiercely protective of those they choose to champion and find Michael endearing and attractive. The mystery for them is the (why?)  of how they became so quickly and thoroughly drawn into the Michael world. They are the Western women whom the Dalai Lama said would change the world. They do that partly by recognizing the Divine Feminine principle and bringing it to life through Michael’s work and their own attributes. Their job is to balance the yang on this planet with their nurturing yin. They intuit they are all on a spiritual journey. There are some men who share this Michaelology journey but they are fewer in number than the females. Mostly they are men who are in touch with their anima or Divine Feminine archetypal influence.

Another group, intellectually oriented, focuses on the legacy of the man, his work and in particular how a renegade law enforcement machine hunted an innocent man and how the media, hungry for headlines and to sell copy, unfairly portrayed him based on accusation and no evidence. They cite trial transcripts and a library of documents examining the case, the parasites involved and the sequence and motivation of events. They are the women who stand for world justice and a peace through reconciliation or conciliation.

There is another faction of fans whose interest in Michael Jackson is primarily the realm of the spiritual and metaphysical. They have intuited something extraordinary about this relatively minor figure of the twentieth century who became a cultural icon for that very century; they intuit the significance of Michael teaching mirror, Michael being mirror. They may or may not consider themselves fans. They sense the vibe of the wisdom keepers and their work is related to the return of the ancients and they sense Michael’s place in that destiny and via him, their own.
People have shared stories with me for almost two years now. They are archived for the future to be anonymously shared as people all over the world who took a journey with Michael, perhaps as a fan when he was alive, perhaps as a newly recruited admirer, perhaps as an advocate focused on setting the record straight with the real story of Michael Jackson and who he was or maybe as a sojourner on a quest for magic and the spiritual key to life through a moonwalking numinous guide.

My own recent journey to Forest Lawn and especially Neverland, changed me in ways I will share with you later, but first I would like to share with you that same journey through the eyes of some women who invited and welcomed me into their quest. Their journeys are marked by milestones, markers, archetypes, symbols and sometimes new understandings or at the very least, new questions. They all felt a stirring within and a transitional change in themselves or their lives—that portends alchemy and new directions. While I stop short of calling their journey a pilgrimage, some of them see it as that. I see vision questing and I salute and applaud their courage.

I have called this introduction to the stories “Finding Nemo Finding Neverland” because these women may or may not have been aware of their surroundings as they were swimming within the transparent walls of a container they didn’t realize was a limited ecosystem  (body-mind-spirit)  until they really looked directly at the transparency of  the glass, saw beyond it, and watched as the ocean appeared.

Their stories begin soon. Stay tuned.


  1. Tania said . . .

    Dear Rev Barbara, Thank You so much for the gift of this new series. I am eagerly awaiting the stories that will be told by all of these blessed women, including yourself, who have experienced the magic, wonder and sacred spirit that I believe lies at the very heart of Neverland. I do believe many answers are to be found there, and quite possibly new questings, directions and illuminations as you have intimated here, for those with open hearts and minds. I look forward to all those possibilities when I make my own journey in a few weeks time.

    For me, this journey with Michael appears to be never ending, constantly evolving and continually expanding my world in ways I never thought humanly possible. But then again, I believe there is something far greater at work here anyway. The light continues to expand, surround and dwell within those who have eyes to see, ears to hear and hearts wide open to receive the messages. What an exciting time this is. Thank You to all who will be sharing their stories with us. I am excited! Much Love and blessings to all.

    Posted July 20, 2011 at 3:45 am | Permalink
  2. Dalia said . . .

    “Youth now swoons over Justin Bieber just as my mother did over Elvis and my grandmother over Sinatra” Although it is an example of how each generation has an icon of his own time, in the case of Michael I noticed that this rule is broken. There are many teenage fans I’ve met online and I often wonder: what are you doing here? Shouldn’t you be talking about Bieber? They respond: “Bieber’s cute but I find in Michael everything I was looking for.” And in the case of male fans, I asked one of them “Why are few men fans on the net?” He replied: “We are more of you can imagine, the point is that men we are more reserved to show our feelings.”that explains the reason for big male audience at concerts. Where are all those men who were filling the stadiums to see Michael? I think they’re anonymous. Thanks Barbara, for sharing this experience with us.

    Posted July 20, 2011 at 4:08 pm | Permalink
  3. Heidi said . . .

    Dear Rev Barbara: What an exciting journey this new series will be and Tania, my heart and soul echoes your every word. Let us hold strong without fail to our intentions for Neverland to move out of the hands of Colony Capital and into the embrace of it’s restoration to the sacred vortex of healing Michael had always intended it to be. Michael is waiting. The Ancients are waiting. Mother Earth is waiting. Help us help them.

    Posted July 21, 2011 at 1:56 am | Permalink
  4. B. Kaufmann said . . .

    Hmmm “sacred vortex”– interesting choice of words. You realize, of course, you can create one of those by sending love and imagining it so with strong emotion and conviction.

    Posted July 21, 2011 at 3:20 am | Permalink
  5. Garden said . . .

    I will be so happy to read these stories!

    Posted July 21, 2011 at 10:34 am | Permalink
  6. Peri Cooper said . . .

    Wow! SO excited to read what’s coming next! What’s funny about me is that I’m a teenager surrounded by other teen fans who seem more like the “drama-lovers/Lisa-haters,” but I think I fit more into the category of “finding a spiritual message in Michael Jackson’s music and lyrics and still finding Michael sexy.” Thank you for helping me discover this different level of maturity within myself as a teen MJ fan (even though I’ve already been a fan for 7 years)! ps. you are an incredible writer, Barbara!

    Posted July 26, 2011 at 12:19 am | Permalink
  7. gertrude said . . .

    I’m happy and thankful you are going to give us these stories. As a “middle-aged woman” who was thrilled and awestruck with Michael’s artistic might, yet not a follower of his personal life, I feel the global soul-quake that occurred at his passing (stopping me dead in my tracks and launching me full-force into Michael-Discovery) was no fluke. This was a being, the impact-to-the-good of whose existence here was not grasped until the awful wrench of his leaving was felt. And then by “leaving” he bloomed with his fierce love-fire deep in hearts. I think the Dalai Lama was right about us, but I think it is going to be women of the globe, not just the West, who save it. At least I pray he is right.

    Posted July 26, 2011 at 2:41 pm | Permalink

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